3 more days

I have only 3 more days until I have to go back to work. Its hard for me to even type that without getting teary. I have been very blessed to have a paid 6 weeks off, but that means Monday its all over. Wow, these 6 weeks has flown by!!

My days have been faster than any days I've ever known. They've been full of breast feedings, diaper changes, baby baths, being peed/pooped/spit up on, cuddling with Morgan, singing to Morgan, doing TONS of laundry, rocking Morgan, kissing Morgan, sleepless nights, happy tears, tired tears, sending Josh on endless trips to Babies R Us or Target, just simply staring at Morgan and thinking "How did I ever deserve this precious gift from God?" and realizing that I have never loved someone the way I love her!!!!!

These have been the best 6 weeks of my life! I am so blessed to have this little girl and I'm sooo going to miss being here to see her every minute of the day. However, I am also very blessed that my granny and mom will be the ones keeping her; that makes me feel comforted for sure!!

I LOVE my job..don't get me wrong. I spent lots of years and lots of money (that I'm still paying back) to have the career I have today, but next week will still be hard.

Please pray for me! Pray that I won't cry too much and make my patients think I'm crazy! Pray that Morgan will do great! Pray that I'll be able to get enough sleep to function during the day too!

Just another reminder that I have no control....

What the heck....I've literally left the house with Morgan like 4 times ever, I make everyone wash their hands all the time and I have like 3 bottles of hand sanitizer around my house and don't let people touch her without using it....and she has a runny/congested nose...WHAT????

Yesterday she started sounding really nasally and congested and it just got worse overnight. I've had to use saline mist and bulb suction all last night and today. I took her to the pediatrician this morning and they think it could be a virus but they aren't sure. I hope its just allergies. Anyway....her lungs are good, no ear infection, no fever, just nasal stuff. BUT...you know its bad for a newborn to have fever, so please please pray with me that she doesn't develop a fever and that this clears up ASAP!

We are supposed to do baby dedication Sunday and the doctor said as long as she is getting better and not any worse we are fine to still do it, so pray for the best. And...I really am sad that the last few days I have home with her she's all congested and not feeling like herself.

I've been in tears several times today over it all....please pray for her to get rid of all this nasal congestion and that she is better very soon!!

Clean House??? When?

I LOVE a clean house. I love those vacuum lines in the carpet...they make me very happy! I love shiny counter tops and the smell of cleaning chemicals! I love all clean and folded laundry and organized drawers and closets. I LOVE a made up bed. I made my bed EVERYDAY before work because it looks so pretty when I get home. I'm a little OCD and that's ok with me, but its very hard to be OCD with a newborn.

Will my house ever be clean again? I'm thinking maybe No!

How can one little girl cause such havoc on the cleanliness of this house. Everyday I clean, pick up things, do some laundry and yet it never looks totally clean. Ahhh....I think I may have to learn to live with a little more mess than I used to (but its not easy for me)

I'm realizing more everyday that I really have no control over anything. I used to think I did, but now I'm admitting that for the most part I don't. God grant me patience...its never been a strong suit of mine!

Oh well were movin' on up....

Yep, we're movin' up...Diaper sizes that is! Morgan is out of her newborn diapers. It makes me sad! I can't believe it...the size 1 diapers look so big, but they fit her! Its crazy how much she's grown! We knew it was definitely time to move up to the size 1's when she had 2 big poopy blowouts in 1 week. The newborn size just wasn't big enough to cover the chunky hiney anymore.

And, its not just diapers. She has also outgrown a lot of her newborn clothes too. There are still a few brands and outfits size newborn that fit her, but she is wearing several of the 0-3 month clothes now. I actually packed up a small box of newborn onsies and nightgowns this morning. My baby is growing everyday!!!

In other news, she is starting to like bathtime more and more everyday! So fun!!!

One Month Old!!!

My sweet little girl turned 1 month old yesterday! WOW....this month has flown by.

Morgan's 1 month stats:
weight: 9lbs 11oz---70-75th percentile
height: 21 in----50-60th percentile
head circ: 14----40-50th percentile

Morgan loves to eat, she is still only on breast milk and takes 1 pumped bottle a day (next week we start 2 a day because I go back to work soon....more on that later). She is a great sleeper too...I her feed around 9pm then we go to bed, mommy wakes her up to eat at 12am then she sleeps until 6:30!!! She smiles and laughs in her sleep and she is starting to occasionally smile back at us!! We are so in love with this sweet girl and can't believe she is growing so fast already!

Also, she is starting to finally enjoy bathtime! Yea!! (I think I wasn't making the water warm enough at first).

Morgan's 1st Bath

Morgan's umbilical cord fell off at the end of last week, so we got to give her a real bath! Well, she wasn't really a big fan. It started off with a stunned look on her face and quickly changed to screaming and then finally she was a little happy by the time we were almost done. I think she was most happy to be wrapped up in her towel than anything else! Hopefully she'll grow to like them!

My life was changed forever in a moment and it was the best moment of my life!!!!!!

So a lot has happened since the last time I blogged...I became a MOMMY on March 30th 2010 at 12:46 am...here's some pics and a brief overview to get us up to date!

I went to work on March 30th knowing I was already at least 4cm dilated and we knew it might be a possibility the dr would send us to the hospital that day, but I went to work as usual and Josh met me at the appt at 1pm. Sure enough, I was 5cm and almost fully effaced so she told us to go home, get our stuff, go to the hospital and get ready to have a baby! It was so surreal but before we knew it we were all checked into Presby and ready for baby to arrive.

The labor wasn't bad; however, Morgan's heart rate didn't respond well to my pushing and my dr was pretty sure the cord was wrapped around Morgan's neck....I didn't push very long and my dr said we had to get her out now because the cord was really wrapped tight around her neck, and so she encouraged me to push with all I had and if she wasn't out in 3 more pushes we'd have to do forceps or an emergency c-section....well, through my tears God gave me amazing strength and Morgan was born!!! 7lbs 3oz, 19 3/4 inches long!!

I will never forget the moment they layed her on my chest.....it makes me cry just typing about it!!! My life was changed forever in a moment and it was the best moment of my life!!!!!!

Morgan has done well, but she developed some jaundice and at first they just kept checking it for a few days and then decided she needed to be under "the lights" the help bring it down. I was in tears thinking they would bring this huge incubator-type thing to the house that she'd have to be in all day long, but to my suprise they brought out this "bili-blanket"....which is basically a blanket of lights that wraps around her toso and velcros on. We were able to hold her, feed her, etc all while she was under them. However, as of today, she no longer needs the lights because her level has came down...YEA!! And....she eats so well, she's already gained 9oz in 6 days since we left the hospital!!

Nights are going well, she wakes to eat every 3 hrs and then is back down until the next time...she really has been a wonderful baby!!

So...that pretty much brings us back to today! Josh is back at work as of yesterday and my mom is still here helping us. Life is good!! :-)